Yesterday, I finished a triathlon. Those are my official results over to the right there! (You may have to click to enlarge it… it was a screen grab from my phone so it’s a little smaller than my usual images).
I’m really proud of myself and how far I’ve come in the past year. A little over a year ago, I would never have been able to do this, and that small fact is absolutely amazing to me.
I trained hard, though I wish I’d spent more time on the bike (obvious if you look at the time to the right, yikes). Overall, I’m really pleased with my effort and I’m still sitting here with that finisher’s high. I have a smile on my face, much like the big ol’ smile I had crossing the finish line– before I burst into tears because I’m ridiculous.
What I’m not pleased with is the race organization and management, which was probably the worst I’ve ever experienced. Nearly all of the information we received was incorrect or backwards or inadequate, and the mentor program, one of the main reasons I’d picked this race in the first place, was nonexistent. I’m struggling to let go of all the negative feelings I have for the race organization and embrace my accomplishment, but it’s difficult.
I don’t deal well with anxiety before high-adrenaline activities (just ask Dan or my dad or my brother, since they’re the ones to witness it most often) and tend to sort of shut down and withdraw into my own world of panicked emotions, and the lack of organization and support sent that tendency into overdrive. After all my training and hard work, I felt totally unprepared to tackle the triathlon.
BUT! I’m still smiling because I swam a 1/2-ish mile, biked 10 miles, and ran 3 miles and lived to tell the tale. Dan was awesome and took a bunch of pictures, which I’ll put up sometime this week, but for now I’m basking in my post-race glow. I’m looking forward to focusing on running for the rest of the season (somehow, I’m excited about hill repeats and track workouts), getting back to yoga, and kicking my strength training into high gear. Things are good on the other side!
Once you finish a race, do you find yourself analyzing what you could have done better? Or are you already planning the next adventure?